Sometime I wonder if I’m truly better
I feel like I am
My life has certainly improved
Things are certainly better than before
The gray clouds are mostly gone
The sun is shining once more
Yet I can’t help but wonder
If deep down, I’m still not better
Deep down I still have the fears
Deep down I still seem to have the anxiety
The memories of that evening
Still seem to haunt me
My phobias still aren’t gone
Still aren’t better
I feel like I’m better
But am I really better
Sometimes I wonder
Will I ever be better?
